ahhhh

i have to fight, i will not give up from my life. i will do nothing stupid with my life. i cant give up.  need to think positiv, i do nothing, but i want that my life ends. i  dont want to live, i have no more power, i cant , but i have to fight without strenght. I have to fight. it doesnt metter what i want, it doesnt metter if i die or i will live, cause no one love me, no one. i was always alone and i, still alone i really want to end my life.

Ahhhhh

we have now 31.3.2012 and im alone. i broke up with my boyfriend. I still really love him but it cant be like this anymore, its hurt so much. i cried  so much, he said to me that he love and that he will be always for me when i need him or i have a problem, he will be always for me there. Why my life is like a big war where never end. i have always to fight but its hurt. i cant alwas fight it  hurt so much. i cant do this anmore.... no place to go,   ,,  let me go  it hur so much i have to go without brokenheart,.... :(

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shiiiiiiiiiiiiit!